I Don't Wanna Grow Up

I'm turning 20 this month. 

Yeah, not THAT big of a deal for most people!

 BUT... it is for me.

 I was REALLY excited when i graduated from high school to go away to college .... late night apartment parties,  friends at football games, and partying it up with hotties across the street. Pretty much just an extended version of high-school but away from home.  I grew up hearing“Enjoy college! Best years of my life, it goes by way too fast.”

Mine was short-lived.

 I was kind of forced into adulthood instead when i decided to do this nursing program and move back home.  Yeah, I feel blessed to get my RN when I will be still 20 and it will set me up for whatever may come in life. And i must say some pretty amazing things have happened while  I have been home.

But when I was asked what I wanted for my birthday this year,

I wanted to say, " Umm... no thanks, my birthday’s kind of just not coming around this year.”

Can't I just extend adolescence into my 20's?

being that i was kinda jipped?!  


Jipped of living with girls that would forever be my adopted sisters and future bridesmaids.  Jipped of midnight Del Taco runs and cookie dough pig-outs.  Jipped of meeting new people every weekend and handing out the rejection hotline number to the not-quite-so-appealing-guys just to say I did.   

 I’m trying to accept the fact that I’m getting older. I’m sure some amazing things will come with age so I’m doing my best to look to the future, not the past.  More importantly, I’m trying to realize that getting older doesn’t mean I have to stop enjoying life.

Right now, the possibilities for my life seem endless. I’m just beginning to realize what I’m capable of, and what the world may have in store for me. It’s a great feeling and I want to hold on to it for as LOOOONNNNGGG as possible!

ok...now that i have that off my chest,   It's TIME TO PARTY!!!

"Your decisions are like switch points on a railroad system. They determine where you will end up in life. When you consistently make the right choices, you are the happiest, receive the greatest personal growth, and have the most productive life. When you make the wrong choices, you may find yourself at an entirely different destination than you want." Richard G. Scott