Last week I experienced something wonderful...

As I was doing my routine medication administration, my patient called out for her husband.  As I was about to give her the shot, her husband, who is 90+ years old, slowly made his way over to the bedside and grabbed her hand (he has been living at the hospital with her and spends every waking moment at her side). She looked up at him and said, "I think I need about 5 kisses right now."  He smiled and leaned over the bed rail and kissed her several times...

"I gave you 10."

At that moment I promised myself that I would find that- I would find a man who will love me with a love that is unbreakable and grows everyday, even when we are 90 years old.  I have seen it, and I know I will find it.  And I will never settle for anything less.

And when I need 5 kisses, I know without a doubt that he will give me 10.

Advice from Elder Busche

This was just what I needed today...and everyday

Cutest thing ever!!

...who cares that he doesn't even know the words
His itchy nose solidified my conclusion that he is the cutest kid ever!

The past few weeks...

I saw a delivery for the first time

I saw a C-section

I held sick babies and cried

I decided that I am going to be a labor and delivery nurse

I experienced the love parents have for their newborns 
I started my first IV!!!

I went to a Jack's mannequin concert with my beautiful cousin and my new friends

I saw old and dear friends in Utah

I spent time with people who mean a lot to me

I spent Valentine's Day in a hotel room...all alone

I fell in love all over again

I realized that I am more grown up than I thought I was

But more importantly...

I decided that I'm ready to grow up

 HOW LUCKY CAN ONE GIRL GET?

Last week I got to celebrate my HALF WAY mark of nursing school...woohoo!

And where did I get to go for my break?!!

Sunny, southern California!

Yep, thats right!

No rain, no mudslides, no clouds...

Someone just KNEW I needed some warm sunshine and 

the beach.

My little, busy world got lost in that big ocean and I felt unbelievably

calm and happy...

Ok, so I felt slightly envious when I saw something like this....

  

sigh...

But its ok.

I never feel lonely on the beach.

I had a fast and crazy love affair with it....

Just in time for Valentine's ;)

Just what i needed.

Monumental

Can we talk about how I beat Mr. Know-it-All (who, might I add, always has an opinion and NEVER stands down from it) in a debate in class yesterday? 

Anyone who knows me well can see why this is a monumental event. 

I'm not the one who speaks up in class and I'm certainly not the one who gives a strong, "unbeatable" person a run for his money on sociological debates.

However, I did it. 

That's right. And you know what...

it was thrilling beyond belief.  The adrenaline rush was spectacular. 

 I believe I earned a gold star for the day.  

It was pretty rad.   

I Don't Wanna Grow Up

I'm turning 20 this month. 

Yeah, not THAT big of a deal for most people!

 BUT... it is for me.

 I was REALLY excited when i graduated from high school to go away to college .... late night apartment parties,  friends at football games, and partying it up with hotties across the street. Pretty much just an extended version of high-school but away from home.  I grew up hearing“Enjoy college! Best years of my life, it goes by way too fast.”

Mine was short-lived.

 I was kind of forced into adulthood instead when i decided to do this nursing program and move back home.  Yeah, I feel blessed to get my RN when I will be still 20 and it will set me up for whatever may come in life. And i must say some pretty amazing things have happened while  I have been home.

But when I was asked what I wanted for my birthday this year,

I wanted to say, " Umm... no thanks, my birthday’s kind of just not coming around this year.”

Can't I just extend adolescence into my 20's?

being that i was kinda jipped?!  


Jipped of living with girls that would forever be my adopted sisters and future bridesmaids.  Jipped of midnight Del Taco runs and cookie dough pig-outs.  Jipped of meeting new people every weekend and handing out the rejection hotline number to the not-quite-so-appealing-guys just to say I did.   

 I’m trying to accept the fact that I’m getting older. I’m sure some amazing things will come with age so I’m doing my best to look to the future, not the past.  More importantly, I’m trying to realize that getting older doesn’t mean I have to stop enjoying life.

Right now, the possibilities for my life seem endless. I’m just beginning to realize what I’m capable of, and what the world may have in store for me. It’s a great feeling and I want to hold on to it for as LOOOONNNNGGG as possible!

ok...now that i have that off my chest,   It's TIME TO PARTY!!!

"Your decisions are like switch points on a railroad system. They determine where you will end up in life. When you consistently make the right choices, you are the happiest, receive the greatest personal growth, and have the most productive life. When you make the wrong choices, you may find yourself at an entirely different destination than you want." Richard G. Scott